PAPPA TAR SEMESTER En dokumentär av Martin Johnson. MY FATHER TAKES A VACATION A documentary by Martin Johnson

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1 MY FATHER TAKES A VACATION A documentary by Johnson PAPPA TAR SEMESTER En dokumentär av Johnson Production: Producer: Length: Swedish Radio Magnus Arvidsson min. Produktion: Sveriges Radio Producent: Magnus Arvidsson Längd: English Translation: Angela E. Adegren

2 Music. Elder brother All the relatives came when we knew, and the doctors knew, and, I suppose dad knew, that there were not many days left now I remember that she felt cold. Otherwise I don t think she said anything in particular. And then she drew a final breath. Cycle changing gear When Mum died, we were on our own - little sister, my big brother, dad and me. Dad started to do a disappearing act. Like, he d come home late from work, if he said he d be home by five o clock, he d come back at 7 o clock. Two years after mum s death, dad ordered a specially designed cycle from England. A red Ferrari cycle, that was, sort of customized for him. They took his measurements and weighed him, and said, there, this is the perfect cycle for you. In the summer of 2001, dad announced that he was going to cycle around the entire coast of Ireland. And we weren t allowed to go with him, he wished to be on his own. Steps.A door opens Hello. Come in. At the house of my friend,. You mean you wonder if he felt homesick at all? Musik. Storebror Hela släkten kom dit, när vi visste, när läkarna visste, när pappa visste väll att nu Nu är det inte många dagar kvar Jag minns att hon frös. Men annars så tror jag nog inte att hon sa särskilt mycket. Till slut så kom ett sista andetag. Cykel som växlar upp. När mamma dog så var det jag, min lillasyster och min storebror och pappa kvar. Pappa började försvinna. Han började komma hem sent från jobbet såhär, om han sa att han skulle komma hem klockan fem så kom han hem klockan sju. Två år efter att mamma dog så special beställde pappa en cykel från England. En ferrariröd cykel, som var liksom efter hans mått. Dem mätte honom och vägde honom och sen så sa, så sa dem; det här är den perfekta cykeln för dig. Det var sommaren 2001 som pappa sa till oss att han skulle cykla längs hela irländska kusten. Och vi fick inte följa med, han ville vara ensam. Trappsteg. Dörr som öppnas Hej. Kom in Hemma hos min vän Du menar att du undrar om han överhuvudtaget längtade hem? Mm. But was he homesick? Maybe he didn t want to come home at all? Perhaps,. during his travels, he d come to the realisation that he had to keep moving on? Mm. Men längtade han hem? Kanske inte ens ville åka hem? Han kanske hittade någonting när han var ute och reste som gjorde att han insåg att han var tvungen att flytta vidare sen?

3 That he wanted to stay away? Yes? Music It seems to me, as though dad has kept on disappearing...after biking around Ireland. I mean, he s living in New Zealand now. Somehow, Ireland was the start of it all. That, that s when he began to disappear. When he discovered how fucking wonderful it was to be on his own. I think he expressed it as having a break from the kids, or something like that. The thing was I didn t. want dad to be alone. Suppose I had a sort of crush on my dad, I was more or less in love with him, as a child. Perhaps you re trying to find out... what was there? How d you mean? Some fantastic thing, that kind of, drew him there? Carried him away. Something he found instead of you lot. Is that really what you want to see? Ah Would you choose to? Would I want to see my what my father had chosen over me? Music. Cycle changing gear. When dad went to Ireland that time. The first time he disappeared for real, was also the starting point of our, I mean, that s when we ceased to understand one another. Att han ville fortsätta att åka bort? Ja? Musik För mig så är det så här att pappa har ju fortsatt att försvinna efter att han cyklade på Irland. Alltså nu så bor han på Nya Zeeland. Irland var på något sätt startskottet. Irland var, det var nu; nu börjar han försvinna. Nu upptäcker han hur jävla skönt det är att vara ensam. Jag tror att han uttryckte det som att han skulle ha semester från barnen, eller någonting sånt. För, jag ville inte att pappa skulle vara ensam. Hade väl någon sorts förälskelse i min pappa, eller var väldigt kär i honom som barn, sådär. Du kanske letar efter var det var som fanns där? Hur menar du? Som kunde vara så fantastiskt att det liksom lockade dit honom? Tog honom bort. Vad han hittade istället för er. Vill du verkligen se det? Aa Skulle du vilja det? Vill jag se någonting som min pappa har valt istället för mig? Musik. Cykel som växlar upp. När pappa åkte till Irland den gången. Den första gången han försvann på riktigt så var det också startskottet för hur vi, alltså att vi slutade förstå varandra.

4 He s moved to the other side of the world, as far as one can possibly go.. There s no way I can understand him, like I can, for instance, talk to him on the phone, but all we can talk about is the weather. I don t know who he is. And so on, yet at the same time I ve got such an incredible longing to understand him. An incredible longing to be with my dad. Home atmosphere. Woman Hello Hiya, hello. Uhm I was wondering if you could perhaps help me, that is if you could help me find some books on Ireland. Woman On Ireland? Yees Woman Mmm Facts on Ireland? Yes, exactly. Woman Mm. Music Don t you have any of those guidebooks, the ones you usually have... Woman Why, yes for the other ones? Han har flyttat så långt bort man kan komma innan man, innan man vänder hem igen. Och där finns ingen chans att jag ska kunna, liksom förstå honom. Jag kan typ ringa och prata men då kan vi bara prata om vädret. Alltså jag vet inte vem han är. Och så, och så samtidigt så har jag den otroliga längtan efter att förstå honom. Jag har en sån otrolig längtan efter att få vara med min pappa. Inomhusatmo. Kvinna Hej Hejsan, hej. Mm Jag skulle behöva be om hjälp, nämligen att du kunde, om du kunde hjälpa mig att leta fram böcker om Irland. Kvinna Om Irland? Jaa Kvinna Mm Fakta om Irland? Ja, precis. Kvinna Mm. Musik Ni har inga så här guideböcker som ni har Kvinna Jo till dom andra? Woman there was one entitled Ireland but it was out on loan. Kvinna det var en som hette just Irland och den var utlånad.

5 I see Jahaa Woman Then there s one relating specifically to Dublin, we should have it in, on the other hand. I have never been to Ireland. I ve only seen it on postcards that dad has sent. This summer he sent three postcards.. Woman It should be in this department, marked NE. NE? I was sixteen the summer dad went cycling in Ireland. I shall be 23, this birthday. No, here it is Ireland in capital letters Woman Then there are a few historical fact books, but perhaps you re not interested in that. Train atmosphere I m going to recreate dad s journey. Voices on train. I m sitting on a train en route from Dublin, to a small seaport, called Wexford. The first picture postcard came from a, a hostel there The Kirwan House hostel. That s the picture on the postcard It s a four-storey stone building. High and narrow. It seems to be squashed in between two other houses. As though it didn t really have room. And the first thing I see is an all-purpose room with a TV on. The room is quite empty an empty, room with a TV on and the sound of a trombone being played And the man who, who opens the door to me, is the, the owner of the hostel. Hello. Are you OK Kvinna Så finns det en just om Dublin, den skulle vara inne däremot. Jag har aldrig varit på Irland. Det enda jag har sett av Irland är från vykort pappa skickade. Pappa skickade tre vykort den sommaren. Kvinna Det ska vara på den här avdelningen NE. NE? Jag var sexton år den sommaren pappa cyklade på Irland. Nu ska jag fylla 23 Nej, men här Irland Stora bokstäver Kvinna Så finns det lite historiska, men det kanske du inte är intresserad av. Tågatmo Jag tänker göra om pappas resa. Tågröst. Jag sitter på ett tåg på väg från Dublin på väg till en liten hamnstad som heter Wexford. Det första vykortet kom från ett, ett hostel där The Kirwan house. Vykortet föreställer det här Det är ett fyra vånings stenhus. Smalt. Högt, så. Intryckt mellan två andra hus på något sätt. Som att det inte riktigt får plats. Och det första jag ser är ett allrum och där står en TV på. Det är helt tom tomt allrummet men det är en TV och så spelas det en trombon. Och mannen som, som öppnar han är ägaren, han är ägaren till hostelet. Hello. Are you ok?

6 Yeah. Uhm The reason I m here is that my father. His name is Mm. He, he biked along the coast of Ireland. Yes. And he he left us children back home in Sweden Mm Alone, and he, kind of, disappeared. Wow. Have you seen my dad, I ask. His name is. Can, can you describe physically you know. What height was he and so on. Yeah. Mm The reason why I am here is that my father. His name is Mhm. He, he biked along the coast of Ireland. Yes. And he he left us children back home in Sweden Mm Alone, and he kind of disappeared. Wow. Har du sett min pappa, frågar jag. Han heter. Can, can you describe him physically you know. What height was he and so on. Yeah, absolutely. He is ah Yeah, absolutely. He is ah He s long. And he looks identical to me. Only older. He actually looks identical to me, but older, and, and Han är, han är lång. Han ser ut som jag. Fast äldre då. He actually looks identical to me, but older, and, and Right Right

7 And yeah, a little bit longer Mm, mm. But physically, we actually look the same Mm. TV-sounds His hair is white and he had a red, a Ferrari-red cycle with four cycle bags on it And he was wearing a...a yellow windcheater. Does anything ring a bell? Uhm I do recall meeting a lot of people from Europe that year. You know, Holland, Sweden. I m just trying to place him. You know, uhm he had a red, red Ferrari bike. He was biking. OK. Uhm Yeah I was working here part time then. I wasn t managing the hostel so There was an older man. Quite an old man, he s nearly ninety now, working here at the time. He doesn t come here anymore, but he s still alive. He still lives in Wexford. His name is. So I don t know well I don t know how his memory may be like or whether he could remember anything. He tells me that there was, that there was another, that there was another man working there at the time. Whose name is. Could we like phone him or something? His, his house is, is about two streets over from here, uhm... And yeah, a little bit longer Mm, mm. But physically, we actually look the same. Mm. TV-ljud Han har vitt hår och han hade en röd, en ferrariröd cykel med fyra cykelväskor på. Och så hade han en gul vindjacka. Does anything ring a bell? Ehm I do recall meeting a lot of people from Europe that year. You know, Holland, Sweden. I m just trying to place him. You know, ahm he had a red, red Ferrari bike. He was biking. Ok. Ahm Yeah I was working here part time then. I wasn t managing the hostel so There was an older man. An quite a old man, he s nearly ninety now working here at the time. He doesn t come here anymore, but he is still alive. He is still living in Wexford. His name is. So I don t know well I don t know how his memory will be like Or, or if he could remember anything. Han berättar för mig att det fanns en, att det fanns en annan man som jo som jobbade här då. Som heter. Could we like phone him or something? His, his house is, is about two streets over from here ahm

8 OK. I don t have his You see he changed his phone number and, and I don t have his number now. I might have it somewhere. Ahem, an old phone number Yeah I have a feeling that Music No, lives just a few houses along; so that s where I m going. Outdoor atmosphere. A door opens. Radio sounds. He has three radios on. All of them on the same channel. Do you like radio? Ah, yeah I do, I think it s brilliant eh OK. I don t have his You see he changed his phone number and, and I don t have his phone number now. I might have it somewhere. Ahm, an old phone number Yeah I have a feeling that Musik Nej, bor bara några hus bort; jag går dit. Utomhusatmo. Dörr öppnas. Ljud från radion. Han har tre radioapparater igång. Alla med samma kanal. Do you like radio? Ah, yeah I do, I think its brilliant eh And, while showing me into his living room, he turns off the radios, one by one. Then he sits himself down in the one-and-only armchair in the room. And picks up these great, heavy horse blankets and drapes them over his legs. Pattering of rain on the window pane. Mm. And he had a yellow jacket. Yeah Och så får jag kliva in i hans vardagsrum, och under tiden så stänger han av dom här radioapparaterna en efter en. Och så sätter han sig ner i vardagsrummets ända fåtölj. Och så tar han så här, jättestora gråa tunga hästfiltar och så lägger han dom över benen. Regn smattrar mot fönstret. Mm. And he had a yellow jacket. Yeah

9 He, he looks almost identical to me Aha except that he s taller, Yeah and he s got white hair. Yeah, you get that when you re a bit older. Yeah, he was, he was about it was after his fiftieth birthday., exactly Yeah Yeah. You know at the moment I can t place him. Ah And he was travelling on his own, right? He would... Yeah. He was travelling alone, wasn t he? But is he, and now, do you, do you have brothers and sisters, now? He, he looks almost identical to me Aha except that he is taller, Yeah and he has got white hair. Yeah, you get that when you are a bit older. Yeah, he was, he was about it was after his fiftieth birthday exactly. Yeah Yeah. You know at the moment I can t place him. Ah And he was travelling on his own, right? He would Yeah. Han reste ensam, eller hur? But is he, and now, do you, do you have brothers and sisters? Yeah. I have a little sister and a big brother Ah, yeah right. So... And then he says Yeah, he did have a family. It is kind of surprising that he would... uhm.. just go out on his own. Isn t it? Yeah. I have a little sister and a big brother. Ah, yeah right. So. Och då så säger han Yeah he did have a family. It is kind of surprising that he would em, just go out on his own. Isn t it?

10 And it is kind of surprising that he left you, he did have a family, after all. Sound of a cycle changing gear. Music. Traffic outside window. And then? And then he went on cycling Mm to a lighthouse, known as The Hook. Situated where near Waterford. It s, like, right by the entrance of the Waterford harbour. That s right. Over there Why did he want to see that? Well that s how it is, I mean I don t think he had, like, a specific plan he was just cycling along, kinda thing. And he saw this lighthouse. So he cycled towards it. And that s the whole point of being on your own, you can cycle wherever you please. Nobody else decides. He just happened to take this route. But, all the time, it s just a I can do exactly as I please. Music. gulls The second picture postcard was sent from a lighthouse, known as The Hook. Here, there s a Memorial wall commemorating those who have died at sea. Twelve more names have been added since dad was here. Say a prayer for the souls of the sea who never reached land. They say as many men lie there as grains of sand. They haul up their nets, hoist their sails. Set the course no more. O ch det är ju konstigt att han lämnade er då, han hade ju en familj Ljud av en cykel som växlar. Musik. Trafik utanför fönstret. Och sen då? Och sen så cyklade han vidare Mm till en fyr som heter The Hook. Som ligger där vid Waterford. Den är liksom precis vid hamninloppet till Waterford. Så, där. Varför ville han se den? Men det är ju sådär, alltså jag tror att han liksom inte riktigt planerade han cyklade liksom. Och så såg han att där är en fyr. Och så cyklade han dit. Och det är väl det som är grejen såhär, om man är ensam så får man cykla var man vill. Det är ingen som bestämmer. Han råkade bara ta den här vägen. Utan, det är ju hela tiden bara ett jag får göra precis vad jag vill liksom. Musik. Fiskmåsar Det andra vykortet kommer från en fyr som heter The Hook. Det finns en minnesvägg här för döda sjömän. Det har tillkommit tolv nya namn sen pappa var här. Say a prayer for the souls of the sea who never reached land. They say as many men lie there as grains of sand. They haul up their nets hoist their sails. Set the course no more.

11 Say a prayer for the souls of the sea who never reached land. Philip Robinson In early January of this year two fishing boats capsized. One of them sank while trying to rescue the other. William Mason, John Corby, John Burne, Quillton Standing here, thinking of mum, when dad was here she had been dead for two years. Boat engines at a distance, herring gulls. is the owner of this boat, which is unloading the day s catch of shrimps. Boat generators throbbing in background. Would you come down tomorrow for your money? Fisherman Tomorrow? Yeah. Fisherman Morning? No, no. It would be four o clock. tells his Lithuanian... fishermen that a storm is brewing So tomorrow they ll have to stay at home. You stay in bed, beside your wife. I noticed you had a mourning wall, a memorial wall Be en bön för dom själar i havet som aldrig nådde fram till land. Philip Robinson I början av januari det här året så förliste två fiskebåtar. Den ena av dem sjönk när den försökte rädda den andra. William Mason, John Corby, John Burne, Quillton När jag står här så tänker jag på mamma, när pappa var här så hade mamma varit död i två år. Båtmotorer hörs på avstånd, fiskmåsar. äger den här båten som håller på att lastar av dagens räkfångst. Båtgenerator surrar i bakgrunden. Would you come down tomorrow for your money? Fiskare Tomorrow? Yeah. Fiskare Morning? No, no. It would be four o clock. berättar för sina litauiska fiskare att det kommer att blåsa upp till storm imorgon. Så dom får vara hemma. You stay in bed, stay beside your wife. I noticed you had a morning wall, a memorial wall

12 Oh yeah, yeah. That s for all the people lost at sea. Their names are up on that. All their names, yeah. I ask about this, this memorial, how, how it feels to see those names, one s friends. Every single day? When you see a lot of the names of fishermen you sailed beside, and knew personally. Like,...it is sad, yeah You know. You would always say a little prayer. You know - when you pass. Whenever you pass by there, you say a prayer.. Fisherman You ring me, ok? I ll ring you, yeah. OK Norse Fisherman See you. Ok, Alexander. Bye, bye. Very few Irish fishermen, fish anymore. Well, we are away from home a lot so Some people put up with it, and others don t. I m just the one that does That s the way. In actual fact, we are out for ten, twelve days at a stretch, before returning home again. The only way we can contact the folks back home is by laptop or one of these radios. We, we keep in touch. We have radios in the house and we keep in touch constantly, you know. We have a laptop computer there where we can send s. So it s a little bit ok that way. One thinks about the folks back home, and how they would be thinking of us out on the sea.. Oh yeah, yeah. That s for all people lost at sea. Their names are up on that. All their names yeah. Jag frågar om den här, den här minnesväggen, hur, hur är det liksom att varenda dag se dom här namnen. Se sin vänner. When you see a lot of the names of some of the fishermen that you sailed beside and that you knew personally. Like it is sad, yeah You know. You would always say a little prayer. You know - when you pass. Varje gång man går förbi där så, så ber man en bön. Fiskare You ring me, ok? I ll ring you, yeah. Ok Norse. Fiskare See you. Ok, Alexander. Bye, bye. Very few Irish fishermen, fish anymore. Well, we are away from home a lot so Some people put up with that, and others don t. I m just the one that does. That s the way. är ute egentligen tio tolv dagar i sträck, innan man vänder hem igen. Det enda sättet att hålla kontakten med dom där hemma det är via en laptop eller via en sån här radio. We, we keep in touch. We have radios in the house and we keep in touch constantly you know. We have a laptop computer there where we can send s. So it s a little bit ok that way. Det man tänker på är hur dom där hemma tänker på den som är ute på havet.

13 We would always think about the people at home, and how they, how they are thinking of us. And Then, naturally one thinks about the catch that., that one isn t wasting one s time out there. And mostly of what s going to come in, in the catch. You know. That we are making money, that we are not wasting our time out there. Music. Telephone signals. Car sounds is going to drive me to a nearby B & B. From where... you can see the Hook Lighthouse. You see The Hook flashing there now, see the light? Oh yeah. That s it there now, that s the Hook Lighthouse. Telephone signals When you are out at sea, and you see the lighthouse. Then you know that you are home. That s our landmark there, when we see that we are home Telephonesignal Hello? Hi, it s. Hi! We would always think about the people at home, how they, how they are thinking of us. And Så tänker man så klart på fångsten att, att man inte slösar sin tid där ute. And mostly of what s going to come in, in the catch. You know. That we are making money, that we are not wasting our time out there. Musik. Telefonsignaler. Billjud. ska köra mig till ett bed and breakfast som, som ligger i närheten. Och då ser man fyren The Hook You see The Hook flashing there now, see the light? Oh yeah. That s it there now, that s the Hook Lighthouse. Telefonsignaler När man är där ute till havs. Och när man ser fyren, då vet man att nu snart är jag hemma. That s our landmark there, when we se that we are home. Telefonsignaler Hello? Hej, det är. Hej!

14 Had you gone to bed? Well almost. Telephone disturbance Why did I cycle round Ireland? Well, mainly. I felt I needed a bit of a break. I was living alone, so to speak, with you and Hannes and Tove Right And I felt in need of a holiday. But perhaps we don t have to talk about that now But what do you mean, like, what do you mean by a holiday? Well to have a bit of time on my own, and all that, completely alone. Do you understand? Telephone interference. Cycle changing gear. When you re cycling you can travel at your own speed. It keeps you fit. And you can get off whenever you wish. But what s the point of cycling? Ah, the point of cycling. Uhm. Well, let s look in up. What do we have here? Just a moment. In Ireland there s an evening prayer, which hangs in the pubs, and hostels and B&B s. And it sounds as though a cyclist could have composed it. May the road drive to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face. May the rain fall softly upon the fields. And, until we meet again may God hold you in the palm of his hand. Telephone disturbance. Gear change, Cycle moving on. Har du gått och lagt dig? Ja nästan. Telefonstörningar Varför jag cyklade på Irland? Mycket har ju att göra med att jag liksom Ja, jag kände att jag behövde lite semester. Jag levde liksom ensam med dig och Hannes och Tove Ja Och jag kände också att jag behövde lite semester. Men det kanske vi inte behöver prata om. Men hur menar du, hur menar du semester liksom? Ja att få vara lite för mig själv sådär, alldeles ensam. Förstår du? Telefonstörningar. Cykel som växlar. När man cyklar så färdas man i en takt som är väldigt behaglig för kroppen. Och man kan kliva av precis när man vill. Men vad är grejen med att cykla, liksom? Åh, grejen med att cykla. Ehm. Jo, nu ska vi slå upp. Var har vi det här? Ett ögonblick. På Irland så har dom en aftonbön. Och den aftonbönen den står uppsatt på pubar och vandrarhem och bed and breakfeast. Och den låter precis som den är gjord av en cyklist faktiskt. May the road drive to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face. May the rain fall softly up on the fields. And, until we meet again may God hold you in the palm of his hand. Telefonstörningar. Cykeln växlar, cyklar vidare.

15 I was thinking about mum.. How was it, was it easier to think about her when you were away from us kids, or was it, like, you were thinking of her all the time, and how... how it used to be, like?. One does a lot of thinking when one s peddling away on a bike. You can be, sort of undisturbed, while your right leg moves automatically up and down and your left leg, down and up. And you glide slowly forward. And yes, of course, a lot of the time was spent thinking about the past. About Annelie s death, what it was like to loose her, and to miss her and because I did, in a way, leave you and Hannes and Tove. Yes. Then, suddenly I felt that there was no longer any need for me to feel such a huge responsibility every day,. D you see? För when one is travelling, one doesn t really know... what s around the corner. Dad met a new woman, and they emigrated to New Zealand. So, dad packed up the apartment. My sister, who was 16 at the time, was packed off to boarding school in Sigtuna. And I, who was nineteen at the time, was fairly able to cope on my own. My elder brother was 22, so he was also an adult, or near enough. Now the family is scattered. It will never, ever be a shred of what it was before Telephone disturbance But, I, I missed you a great deal, that summer Jag tänker på såhär mamma, sådär. Hur, var det, var det lättare att tänka på mamma när du var borta från oss barn, eller var det liksom, tänkte du hela tiden på mamma, eller hur och det som hade varit liksom. tänker väldigt mycket när man trampar på en cykel. kan liksom ostört medan man, höger ben rör sig upp och ner och vänster ben rör sig ner och upp. Så cyklar man sakta framåt. Och det är klart, väldigt mycket av tiden gick åt att tänka på allt som hade varit. Med Annelies död, hur det var att mista henne och sakna henne och för jag liksom lämnade ju dig och Hannes och Tove. Ja. Så kunde jag liksom känna att nu, behöver jag inte känna ett väldigt tungt ansvar varje dag. Förstår du? För att man vet ju egentligen inte när man reser vad som väntar bakom nästa krök. Pappa träffade en ny kvinna och han och hon flyttade till Nya Zeeland. Dom emigrerade till Nya Zeeland. Så pappa packade ihop lägenheten. Min syster som var 16 då hon fick gå på internatskola i Sigtuna. Och jag var nitton så på nått sätt klarade jag mig själv och min storebror var då 22. Så, så han var också vuxen eller vad man ska säga. Nu är det sista av familjen, nu är det borta. Nu kommer det aldrig, aldrig någonsin åtminstone en spillra av vad det förut. Telefontörning Men, jag, jag saknade dig väldigt mycket den sommaren. Yes. I remember wanting to come with you to Ireland, like. Ja. Jag minns att jag ville följa med dig till Irland liksom.

16 Well, in a way you did, though it was a few years later. Ja. Det var ju du också på sätt och vis. Fast några år senare. Yes But, but, did you think about us a lot while you were cycling? Yes I did. And I sent you postcards Yes now and again But what, what was it like moving to New Zealand then? I mean...and.just Well that s it. Well I ll have to tell you when you come for Christmas. Ok It s a long story. Yeah. Yeah. But weren t there any similarities between NZ and and Ireland, I would have thought so? No, there weren t. No By the way,! Yes? Ja Men, men tänkte du mycket på oss när du cyklade? Ja det gjorde jag. Och jag skickade kort Ja lite då och då Men, hur, hur var det sen att flytta till Nya Zeeland då? Jag menar,och bara Då så är det ju Ja Det får jag berätta till jul när du kommer. Ok Det är en lång berättelse. Ja. Ja. Men fanns det några likheter mellan Nya Zeeland och och Irland tänker jag. Nej, det gjorde det inte. Nej Jo! Ja?

17 How much money do you need? what? Fax the travel agency giving my credit card details, and they can draw the sum against my signature. Cycle changing into higher gear. Right. But listen, shall we talk, try to talk some more at the weekend? Shall we do that? If you ve got time, that is.. Uhm. Well, it s not so good, because I m off to Rotorua. Oh I shall be staying in a hostel there, for on Sunday morning there s a cycle contest two laps round Lake Rotorua Music. Ok. So, I ll be home on Sunday, afternoon/evening then. Mm. In that case, we could try ringing each other on Friday, then? Or Saturday morning, my time. Yes, that ll be fine. OK, fine Yes. Hur mycket pengar behöver du? Eh Faxa till Resebyrån med min uppgifter på kreditkortet så kan de dra det därifrån med min namnteckning på summan. Cykel som växlar upp. Just det. Men du, ska vi prata, försöka prata mer till helgen? Ska vi göra det? Om du har tid. Ehm. Ja, det går inte så bra för att lördag då åker jag till Rotorua. Jaha Och bor på vandrarhem där för att på söndag morgon är det den här cykel tävlingen två varv runt Lake Rotorua Musik. Ok. Så att sen kommer jag hem på söndag, eftermiddag kväll då. Mm. Men då kan vi försöka höras på fredag då? Eller lördag morgon min tid. Ja. Det blir bra. Det blir bra. Ja.

18 Yes. Ok, take care of yourself. Music, cycle sounds Dad sent three postcards that summer. And the third, and, final, one displays a photo of Dursey Island. Where Ireland ends and the sea begins. So, in order to get there, if you don t have your own means of transport, you have to cross by cable car. Irish voices Hello. Hi. Hello, how are you? Welcome! Thank you, Hi The cable car is, in reality, an old wooden shack, that runs to and fro between the island and the mainland. Irish voices On the postcard, there is also a sign, which says room for one cow, eight sheep, or four people, on board the little cable car.. Do you want to go in to the Island now? Eh, Yeah Yeah Ja. Ok, var rädd om dig. Musik, cykelljud Pappa skickade tre vykort den sommaren. Och det tredje och sista vykortet visar ett foto på Dursey Island. Där Irland slutar och där havet börjar. För att komma dit så om man inte har en egen så måste man åka över med en linbana. Röster på Irländska Hello Hi : Hello, how are you? Welcome Thank you, Hi Linbanan är egentligen ett gammalt trä skjul som åker fram och tillbaka mellan ön och fastlandet. Irländska röster Det finns också en skyllt som man kan se på vykortet där det står att det att det får plats 1 ko, åtta får eller fyra människor ombord på den här lilla linbanan. Do you want to go in to the Island know? Eh, Yeah Yeah

19 He talks so fast I can hardly understand what he s saying. He s a kind of guard, operating the cable car back and forth. Han pratar så snabbt att jag knappt förstår vad han säger. Och han vaktar liksom linbanan. Han kör linbanan fram och tillbaka. You drove you take the cable car over from here? Yeah, yeah, yeah. You can go in here. I ask him if anyone still lives on the island. Is there is anyone there?. Do you know if there is anybody on the Island now? Very few. Very few Very few And he tells me that there are only two people left. Uhum. There s a man in the first village, who may, or may not be willing to talk to me. There s one man there in the first village. But maybe he will speak to you, maybe not Okay Yeah, yeah. We will see how it goes. Yeah, thanks Okay! Cable car sounds You drove you take the cable car over from here? Yeah, yeah, yeah. You can go in here. Jag frågor honom om det bor några kvar på ön. Om det finns några där. Do you know if there is anybody on the Island now? Very few. Very few Very few Och då berättar han att det finns bara två kvar. Ehm. Det finns en man i första byn som kanske vill prata med mig. Eller inte. There is one man there in the first village. But, maybe he will speak to you, maybe he not. Ok Yeah, yeah. We will see how it goes. Yeah, thanks Ok! Ljud från linbanan

20 Dursey Island was the end of dad s journey. He parked his cycle here. It wasn t possible to transport it by cable car. He had cycled a hundred miles and been away for a month. Then I realise that I have actually made the same journey as dad. We ll have the chance to talk about it when we meet up at, at Christmas. walkingr Dursey Island. There s a light on in one of the houses on a hilltop. As I approach, I see a goat tied to a pole outside the house, and that the door is open. So I go in. Hello! Hello? Hi there! Yah I was wondering if I No, go away, get away from me (inaudible) Go away! Go! Go away! Shut the door! Shut the door! Get out! walks slowly out of the house There are only two people on this island. So now there s only one left for me to meet. Dursey Island var slutet på pappas resa. Han parkerade cykeln här. Det gick inte att ta över cykeln på linbanan. Och då hade han cyklat hundra mil och varit borta i en månad. Så inser jag att jag har ju faktiskt gjort, jag har faktiskt gjort samma resa som pappa har gjort. Vi kommer att kunna prata om det här när vi faktiskt ses till, till jul. promenerar Dursey Island. I ett av husen högst upp på en kulle så lyser det. När jag kommer närmare så ser jag att, att det står en get fastbunden i en påle utanför och att dörren står öppen. Så jag kliver in. Hello! Hello? Hi there. Yah I was wondering if I No, go away, go away from my (ohörbart). Go away! Go! Försvinn! Close the door! Stäng dörren! Get out! promenerar ut från huset. Det finns bara två personer på den här ön. Så nu finns det ju bara en kvar, som jag kan möta.

21 Sorry sir, hello? Hi there. En röst ropar. He s standing in front of a cow, waving a red bucket as though it were a flag. He has his cows on the island. Sorry Sir, hello? Hi there. En röst ropar. Han står framför en ko och så viftar han en röd hink som om det var en flagga. Han har sina kor här på ön. What s wrong? I was wondering what are you doing here? Me? Yeah I am farming You are farming here? Yeah. I tell him that I have followed dad all the way here. Its really funny to be here because, uhm my father he, he travelled alone after my mother had died. Yeah? So That it feels, feels rather special that this was the turning point for dad. Where his journey ended, and he set out for home Whats wrong? I was wondering what are you doing here? Me? Yeah I am farming You are farming here? Yeah. Jag berättar för honom att jag har följt pappa hela vägen hit. Its really funny to be here because ahm, my father he, he travelled alone after my mother had died. Yeah. So Att det känns, känns speciellt att det var här pappa vände hem.

22 He walked across to the tip of the island, walked back again and then he went back to Sweden. So, it s been a long journey, actually. It is a long journey yeah. Yeah well you should do the same today. You think so? Follow your father s footsteps. If you go further out. If you walk out in there and you will see, you will see the Bull rock, the Coal rock and the Calf rock. If you will stay on the road you will see them Yeah, ok. Yeah. You should do the same thing, today. Follow in your father s footsteps Music. Footsteps This is the tip of Dursey island. This is where my father. This was his turning point. You do actually get a feeling of wanting to continue on. You get a feeling of wanting to throw yourself in the ocean. Telephone rings. Telephone Hello? speaking Hello? Telephone Call later or leave a message after the tone. Hi, dad, it s. Look, I just want to say that I m on Dursey Island, and looking out over the sea. Uhm. I miss you, hope everything s Okay. He walked across to the tip of the island and then he walked back and then he went back to sweden. So, its been a long journey actually. It is a long journey yeah. Yeah well you should do the same today. You think so? Follow your fathers footsteps. If you go out to the far, if you walk out, in there and you will see, you will see the Bull rock, the Coal rock and the Calf rock. If you will stay on the road you will see them. Yeah, ok. Yeah. Du borde göra samma sak idag. Följ din pappas fotspår. Musik. Fotsteg. This is the tip of dursey island. This is where my father. This was his turning point. You do actually get a feeling of wanting to continue on. You get a feeling of wanting to throw yourself in the ocean. Telefonsignaler. Telefon Hello! speaking. Hallå? Telefon Call later or leave a message after the tone. Hej pappa, det är. Du jag ville bara säga att jag är på Dursey Island och tittar ut över havet. Ehm. Jag saknar dig, hoppas allt är bra. Hej.